FRUSTRATION

I think I have done a really good job of staying focused and keeping on top of everything. But today is just pissing me off. I try and try and try to get everything together and organized, but sometimes it's just too much. I am pissed off at AT&T for their monopolistic ways and the fact that they are impossible to deal with. I have two choices. I can suspend my contract for 6 months that I'll be gone and pay for the rest or I can cancel my contract and lose my phone number (which I've had for SEVEN years) along with my unlimited internet package (which AT&T does not offer anymore because they're a**holes. On top of this awful dilemma, I have to try to contact someone to look at/fix my A/C which I believe is the root of many problems in our condo. I hate that I have to take care of everything because I'm responsible and no one else seems to be. I am just tired of running around and being a grown up.

Oh yeah, and my contact from one of my schools has confused me more than anything. He has no idea what or when orientation is. The teachers who have offered me housing want me to pay €100 a week to stay with them, which I find a bit ridiculous even if it does include food and "everything" (what everything includes is beyond me). He has no idea who my contact is for the other school I'll be teaching at, and I have no idea how to contact them.

I'm just run down and tired and wish that I didn't have to do this all by myself. I hate running into walls and not having the energy to push through. I just need all the BS to be over with already.